Since it's the Christmas season, and today being Christmas, I've been thinking about the religion I grew up with, Roman Catholic. Whenever I go to church, I see so many people that seem to belong there, while I feel I stick out like a sore thumb. I am always people-watching, wondering what that person's story is or thinking about anything else other than what the priest is talking about. Not the best thing, I know.
People have such a strong faith I wish I could have, but I'm not sure I believe in what is being taught. They put all their faith, hope and love in God, and they seem all the happier and more peaceful for it. What is there secret? I asked someone this once and they said all you have to do is believe and trust - don't question. Once you stop questioning, everything will become clear.
But my question is this: How do you stop questioning and just let things be. It is a truth universally acknowledged that once you stop looking for something, it will shortly find you when you least expect it.
Maybe we all should just "be" and start believing, especially in ourselves. Especially me. Maybe I should take my own advice for once.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Not Really a Point to This One
I'm bored, and I don't have any pressing issues to talk about, but here are a few things on my mind.
1. Where does the post office send letters children address to Santa Claus in December?
2. What does it really mean to be emo?
3. Who came up with the idea of the Tooth Fairy - Santa and the Easter Bunny I understand, but the Tooth Fairy?!
4. How many kids I will have one day?
5. Why haven't I discovered Dashboard Confessional before?
Merry Christmas!
1. Where does the post office send letters children address to Santa Claus in December?
2. What does it really mean to be emo?
3. Who came up with the idea of the Tooth Fairy - Santa and the Easter Bunny I understand, but the Tooth Fairy?!
4. How many kids I will have one day?
5. Why haven't I discovered Dashboard Confessional before?
Merry Christmas!
This One's For The Girls
Caroline Kennedy is trying to be the next senator in New York state. I've been reading headlines and some people are for her because she can continue the beloved Kennedy legacy, while others believe she will not make a competent politician because she is a female and does not have any political experience.
Political experience my ass. She has grown up in a family of political overachievers, and I think she has quietly and reverently observed from the sidelines. Everyone needs to start somewhere, so why should she be any different and given criticism because she is a female. Her father was one of the most beloved presidents in the United States; I think it would be interesting to see how the world and the United States would have been if he was president and not assassinated at an early time in his career.
Throughout history, women were just as knowledgeable as their husbands or fathers about politics. Look at Eleanor Roosevelt or Elizabeth I; they had husbands and fathers as leaders, but they still observed and looked at the world around them. These females would have been just as capable of running a country as their male counterparts. Elizabeth I did and she did it pretty well.
I hope there is not going to be another Sarah Palin situation on our hands. Caroline Kennedy is educated and a lawyer; she has the same experience and background as numerous politicians and maybe more because she grew up in a political dynasty. I hope that she will carry herself and rely on her intelligence and experience, not her physical appearance and the fact she is a woman if she wants the New York state senate seat.
Political experience my ass. She has grown up in a family of political overachievers, and I think she has quietly and reverently observed from the sidelines. Everyone needs to start somewhere, so why should she be any different and given criticism because she is a female. Her father was one of the most beloved presidents in the United States; I think it would be interesting to see how the world and the United States would have been if he was president and not assassinated at an early time in his career.
Throughout history, women were just as knowledgeable as their husbands or fathers about politics. Look at Eleanor Roosevelt or Elizabeth I; they had husbands and fathers as leaders, but they still observed and looked at the world around them. These females would have been just as capable of running a country as their male counterparts. Elizabeth I did and she did it pretty well.
I hope there is not going to be another Sarah Palin situation on our hands. Caroline Kennedy is educated and a lawyer; she has the same experience and background as numerous politicians and maybe more because she grew up in a political dynasty. I hope that she will carry herself and rely on her intelligence and experience, not her physical appearance and the fact she is a woman if she wants the New York state senate seat.
Friday, December 19, 2008
What Happened to the Silver?
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I've come to the conclusion I really have not come to a solid conclusion. I've been thinking about how to move forward with my life, trying to develop a long-term plan for the next few months.
The only definite answer is that there is not one. I just want to be happy the next few months before joining the real world, and I know the best way to do that is to take it day by day. This will be hard because I live for planning my life, but it's time to finally go with the flow like the rest of the world is doing at the moment.
All I have been doing the past few days is reading and working out like crazy. And spending time with my family. I really haven't even seen any friends from high school, and I realized I really don't miss them. Each time we see each other, conversation becomes forced, like we have nothing in common anymore. We all have grown up and apart from one another. It's weird to think that the best friends I've had since middle school are not only acquaintances. I can't even imagine or want to tell them things I would tell my sisters or people at Brockport. Why do people grow apart? Is it because they don't care to keep in touch, or you were only friends for that certain phase in your life?
The only person this hasn't happened to is my best friend. I know we don't talk as often as we should, but one thing I love about our relationship is that we can just pick up where we left off and talk for hours. I tell her everything, and she is one of the few people who will listen, never give her opinion unless it is asked.
I'm used to being the listener, only giving people support and an ear to listen; I never give my opinion unless it is wanted. When I try to tell people things, many want to say "Why did you do something stupid like that?" or "I told you so!" or "This is how you should have handled the situation?" When did people become so judgmental and nosy - what ever happened to someone just listening?
The only definite answer is that there is not one. I just want to be happy the next few months before joining the real world, and I know the best way to do that is to take it day by day. This will be hard because I live for planning my life, but it's time to finally go with the flow like the rest of the world is doing at the moment.
All I have been doing the past few days is reading and working out like crazy. And spending time with my family. I really haven't even seen any friends from high school, and I realized I really don't miss them. Each time we see each other, conversation becomes forced, like we have nothing in common anymore. We all have grown up and apart from one another. It's weird to think that the best friends I've had since middle school are not only acquaintances. I can't even imagine or want to tell them things I would tell my sisters or people at Brockport. Why do people grow apart? Is it because they don't care to keep in touch, or you were only friends for that certain phase in your life?
The only person this hasn't happened to is my best friend. I know we don't talk as often as we should, but one thing I love about our relationship is that we can just pick up where we left off and talk for hours. I tell her everything, and she is one of the few people who will listen, never give her opinion unless it is asked.
I'm used to being the listener, only giving people support and an ear to listen; I never give my opinion unless it is wanted. When I try to tell people things, many want to say "Why did you do something stupid like that?" or "I told you so!" or "This is how you should have handled the situation?" When did people become so judgmental and nosy - what ever happened to someone just listening?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Time for a revised American dream
I enjoy hearing the latest celebrity gossip as much as the next person, but when this gossip becomes headline news in the media, there is something wrong with people who are producers and newscasters. There is still a war, people are dying in the Middle East, the economy is again shaky, so what do people care about: Britney is requiring all her dancers to submit to random drug tests.
A few months ago I met international journalists in one of my communication classes. They said they were turned off by the American press system because all we cover is national news and celebrity news. After hearing this, it made me ashamed to be pursuing in a career that does not focus on real news half the time. As supposedly one of the leading nations in the world, we should be covering international news. It is imperative to understand and know what is happening outside the U.S. borders. These journalists were from third-world countries that had more international news coverage than America.
For a long time America has been the lead power in everything, but even the top dog needs to learn tricks to stay ahead of the competition. The U.S. can't rely on its reputation for being the best; it's time to start proving it again.
A few months ago I met international journalists in one of my communication classes. They said they were turned off by the American press system because all we cover is national news and celebrity news. After hearing this, it made me ashamed to be pursuing in a career that does not focus on real news half the time. As supposedly one of the leading nations in the world, we should be covering international news. It is imperative to understand and know what is happening outside the U.S. borders. These journalists were from third-world countries that had more international news coverage than America.
For a long time America has been the lead power in everything, but even the top dog needs to learn tricks to stay ahead of the competition. The U.S. can't rely on its reputation for being the best; it's time to start proving it again.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
No Birthday Cake For Little Adolf
I was reading the headlines in yahoo news and one headline said a child was denied a birthday cake. This was something that caught my eye and as I continued to read the story, I couldn't help but be amused. Parents decided to named their child Adolf Hitler Campbell. The parents requested the name put be on their 3-year-old son's cake along with a swastika. All the cake companies denied this request, saying they have the right to not bake a cake.
I know that newspapers have the right to not print a story, but to deny 3-year-old Adolf his birthday cake is downright funny. That kid is going to be treated like hell at school with a name like that. Actually, forget school - he is going to have to deal with a hell at home. Seriously, what parents name their child Adolf Hitler? The parents said that they did not expect so much controversy when they gave their son that name.
I just hope my sister and her husband do not name their son Francisco Franco or daughter Jezebel. Maybe I should e-mail them this article.
I know that newspapers have the right to not print a story, but to deny 3-year-old Adolf his birthday cake is downright funny. That kid is going to be treated like hell at school with a name like that. Actually, forget school - he is going to have to deal with a hell at home. Seriously, what parents name their child Adolf Hitler? The parents said that they did not expect so much controversy when they gave their son that name.
I just hope my sister and her husband do not name their son Francisco Franco or daughter Jezebel. Maybe I should e-mail them this article.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The End of a Chapter
For the past few days I have not been in the best of moods, so I wanted a few days to be by myself. There is nothing wrong with hiding from the world for a few days, especially when you do not want to be around people.
A lot of stuff has happened to me since May, and I have not cried since last semester. This past week I just balled my eyes out over everything: going from guy to guy, growing up and life in general. I do not cry often, but when I do, I like to be by myself.
Still, some people could not understand why I wanted to lock myself up for a few days. This got extremely annoying when people try to make you get out and do stuff. I realize it is important to eventually get out and face whatever is going on, but sometimes people need a few days to cry and eat cookie dough. Sometimes the best beginning of therapy is getting rid of all of those tears before you do out and face everyone, especially people you do not want to see.
Tears are a part of therapy no matter what anyone says. It proves you felt something and helps you grow as a person. Some people said don't waste time crying over what happened the past few weeks, but I want to cry because I need to know how I felt. The feelings weren't great to feel, but they were there, and I need to know they are. I'd rather feel pain rather than pretend nothing happened, denying reality.
A lot of stuff has happened to me since May, and I have not cried since last semester. This past week I just balled my eyes out over everything: going from guy to guy, growing up and life in general. I do not cry often, but when I do, I like to be by myself.
Still, some people could not understand why I wanted to lock myself up for a few days. This got extremely annoying when people try to make you get out and do stuff. I realize it is important to eventually get out and face whatever is going on, but sometimes people need a few days to cry and eat cookie dough. Sometimes the best beginning of therapy is getting rid of all of those tears before you do out and face everyone, especially people you do not want to see.
Tears are a part of therapy no matter what anyone says. It proves you felt something and helps you grow as a person. Some people said don't waste time crying over what happened the past few weeks, but I want to cry because I need to know how I felt. The feelings weren't great to feel, but they were there, and I need to know they are. I'd rather feel pain rather than pretend nothing happened, denying reality.
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